Stuck but not Sinking

Thank you everyone who send kind words of encouragement and hope.  I'm grateful to you all.

Yesterday as I struggled with this idea of forever, knowing I don't have the strength for that, God reminded me that I don't need to have the strength for forever. In fact, He won't give me the strength for forever. He has told us to cast our cares on Him, because He cares for us (I Peter 5:7). And He said not to worry about tomorrow; there are enough things today (Matthew 6:34).

So, if I think that way, God will give me the strength to live with 5 health conditions today. Not tomorrow. Today. And then when tomorrow becomes today, He will give me the strength for today.

I don't have to accept forever. That I can leave in God's big, big hands (Deuteronomy 33:27), and let Him create and design my forever as He wants. In fact, the Bible says Jesus is the author and finisher of our faith (Hebrews 12:2). Being an author, I know how sometimes a book is going a certain direction, but then I get this great idea and enjoy surprising my readers with an unexpected twist. He is the author of my life, so I really should stop trying to butt in with my own pen to write a chapter or two myself! He can finish the book however He likes, and I will try to live the character He has designed me to be with grace and peace. Not my own grace and peace (I don't have any left), but His (He has plenty to share! I Corinthians 1:3).

To all of you out there who are reading this because you know how it feels, don't give up and don't give in to despair. With God, we are never without hope. Even when everything is hopeless, we are not without hope, because we not without Him!

The Lord bless you and keep you. The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you . . . and give you peace (Numbers 6:24-26).

Photo by Todd Tomasella

"He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust." Psalms 91:4 (KJV)


P.S. In case you're wondering, my 5 health conditions are Addison's Disease, the cyst in my brain, asthma, blood sugar problems and scoliosis (my spine having a nice pretty curve where it shouldn't), oh, and a reverse banana curve in my neck, but we'll put that in with the scoliosis as just one.